Hurtful Truths

I met you and instantly knew you would be mine..A glimpse of a bright future entered my mind and caused a stir that still is

From that first moment, every thought, every action and every breath was an attempt to get closer to you and all that you are

I have awaited your spiritual presence my entire life and will do whatever it takes to nurture this union and build upon it per His instruction

Daily, we share a common outlook and bond that surpasses any previous notion of what could have been with any other person in any other situation

I have nurtured this Diamond in the Rough but not even Anthony can sing the sorrow that I have now created between us

The person I am now bears no resemblance to who I was but now that the truth has surfaced, it has uncovered a pain within your heart that has plunged deep within you and entered my soul

Whether I beg or plead is neither here nor there because this decision is yours to make although I wish I held the judgment in my own hands and could rule in my own favor

I pace the floor waiting for a response and my bear feet do not feel the cold that they stand atop of because I am insensitive to everything but you

My stomach is in knots as though I await my pre-determined execution because the loss of your love is the rope by which I hang

Everyone has a past and although I try to shake mine, it still affects not only me but now shifts to you..the question remains whether or not this can be overlooked or has our present now become our past?

Has our happiness now become a once remembered smile turned upside down?  Has all of our sunshine turn to gray skies and torrential downpours?

All I wanted was your happiness.  All I wanted was to be truthful but in that truth lies a possible consequence that I have lived with since that day my past became my present

I kept from you the one thing you asked me not to which was a simple thing...truth.  Not when I decided the time was right but when you needed it to be.  I took our lives into my own hands and now have created something neither one of us wants...doubt

Please try and look into the mirror that you first saw me in and remember the reflection you saw.  I am still the spiritual reflection which glared back at you with strong purpose and wonderful intent..

At one time I would say U R MINE but now I wonder IF U R MINE.....