She was the one by my side from the start who understood and never questioned
The one who made me feel loved and cherished and protected
The one who fought for me, guided me, instructed me and taught me
The soul that provided shelter for my doubt and fear
The mirrored image of goodness in a world unfamiliar to me as a youth unknowing
A love that allowed me to once feel safe and guarded when I was alone
And now as I write these words through foggy eyes and a torn heart
I yearn once again for those playground days when we ran and smiled
The days when time stood still for us because life was our playground and everything in it was grand
All we had was each other and the strengthened bond God created
You were my dolove and I was your truelove and we would say "Lord remember me"
Well, I am remembering those moments all alone now but I shall not forget
I sing our happy song to uplift you in praise but I do not hear your voice in my ear
I sing this song to you but search for your smile, where has it gone
I want to be happy, for you are entering His kingdom but my selfishness disallows that feeling
My want and need and desire for your love creates a hesitancy to release you..I just can't
There's no sadness in a loved one entering those beautiful pearly gates, at least that's what they say
"Rejoice and be exceeding glad" well I am not ready to rejoice because I still remember your playground smile and our song..."dolove and truelove Lord remember me"...come back...PLEASE
I remember your lessons and will move forward through this life with you standing near me.
Please visit me often and touch my dreams. Anoint me. Please all I ask is to see you again
There has never been any pain in my life greater than this. The blast to my soul has opened a wound
unable to be closed by man made emotions or words
Lord I need you to guide me now. I need you to guide my sister home...peacefully. I call out to you.
Please my God, please, please , please, please, please...let her into the light from which we all derive That glorifying and omnipotent light we all yearn to return to in peace.
My heart aches and I am crippled. I have fallen and this pain is more than I can bear. I no longer hear words other than my own muffled sounds and my face is now something different than the happiness she helped to create.
I rush from this place to you in hopes my God will not take you until my arrival. I am frantic with the thought you may not wait for me.
My beautiful sister Erika, I love you!!!!!! I love you with every fiber and being and ounce of my soul.
You brought me up as a child and now I carry you on as a man.
Let's sing again that happy playground song..dolove and truelove, Lord remember me........
Your emotions are heart-felt of your relationship between you and Erika. May God lift you and your spirit and embrase her with his loving arms. My prayers are with you, as I have lost loved ones and watched as they suffered before the Lord took them to a better place.
ReplyDeleteyou are truly special for acknowledging my pain. Thank you so much
DeleteHi Patrick. You wrote a lovely poem in honor of your sister. I can't imagine the place that you are in right now. But know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I can tell from your poem that you and your sister were very close. Even though she is no longer here, I know you still feel her love. Stay close to God and He will comfort and see you through this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteThank you Gayle. Yes, it is a difficult thing cause she help bring me up with no parents so she is very special.
Deletewow... did I just cry?
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