Internal Disruption

Where are you going?  I thought you liked to inhabit me.  Flowing through me at all times, you
were supposed to be strong, freely flowing and able to keep me alive

Where are you going? Your warmth was my blanket of security.  You made me whole.... actually complete

Where are you going? You're sliding away from me.  You're contradicting your purpose.  We have been one of each other.  Those times, I slept, you filled me entirely

Now, you've descended; spiraled outside of me with such velocity.  You've kept me strong for so long, I know I will not survive without you.  I'm filling up with shattering coldness and physical betrayal

Never once did I know the pain of you leaving me would be succumbed by only the desperate last glance I cast upon you

I lie here covered from head to toe with you.  Insatiated by the affinity of our life together is now replaced by the lonesome feeling of lying here soaked in your pool

You're brighter than my skin; a reddish hue unlike any other I have seen this close.  Breath is slower now as I exhale you out of my system.  Tenderly, you trickle away never once stopping until you flow slowly away

Look at the mess you've created.  Look at the tragic display you've adopted.  Our kinship is no more.  You're betrayal is imminent

You flow away, silent while my insides scream for your return.  My breathing is sporadic and my eyes are of no flutter.  My blank stare is all I will allow you; your departure is evidence you're gone for good

I take a breath and gurgle you out.  You are so beautiful.  Whether, red, rojo, rosso or rouge, you are everything to me.  I wish to speak your name again but your absence silences me

I take my last breath.  Gone away now. A fleeting sorrowful moment of your time is all I asked.  You are completely gone and my blank stare has now passed

My eyes closed, my breath no longer, motionless and undisturbed is my new existence

Where are you going?